February 2012
The way to your dream is not a straight line. But if you want it enough, all the curves, bends, and loops won't keep you from getting to your destination.
I'm lucky to finally be working full-time. While it's not exactly what I was hoping for, it doesn't make me any less grateful. In fact, I am incredibly thankful for the opportunity.
Right now, I like to think I'm in the curves, bends, and loops. And if I want it enough, I will get to where I want to be.
September 2011
It's been five months -- nearly half a year of getting to know this place, getting to know new people, and, most importantly, getting to know myself. But it's far from over.
The good news is that I have been given more opportunities to discover who I am. By this, I mean, I am finally legally permitted to work here.
So now, I am in the process of finding a job -- hopefully, one that is more than a way to earn a living, but something to enrich my life even more.
August 2011
When major events happen to me, I typically get a haircut. Got engaged -- Layers. Got a new job -- Blunt. Got "disengaged" -- Bob with bangs. Got "re-engaged" -- Shag.
But when MAJOR doesn't even begin to describe what I had gone through, what's a girl to do?
Here's what happened in the span of three short months: I moved out of the country I had been living in for over twentysomething years, said goodbye to my family and friends, left a promising career, moved into a completely new home in a foreign land, and got married to the man I had been engaged to twice (perhaps a story for another day).
My life had been turned upside down.
Because I am still technically an "alien" in this new home of mine, I am not yet obliged -- or more appropriately, allowed -- to work. So my husband -- bless his heart -- has been working hard to keep the two of us alive and well.
In a society where individuals are almost always defined by their profession, I'm the proverbial bum. Thankfully, not by choice. But still, it is unsettling. For most of my life, I was always "busy" so this was one of the most difficult changes I've been dealing with.
From another standpoint, my current situation sounds like an extended vacation. For the most part, it actually is. It is a blissful time to do the things most people only say they intend to do but never get around to -- like curl up in bed to read a good book, learn a useless skill, get in touch with old friends, or try out the new "in" thing that everyone's talking about.
And I did all that. Since coming here, I have learned to cook (a feat for someone who has never fried an egg in her life), and even bake cupcakes and cookies. I have become highly domesticated -- learning to do the laundry, clean the house, and mow the lawn. I've finished reading Assholes Finish First, The Book of Awesome, Wicked and Mythbusters (The next books on my list have more literary meat in it, including Son of a Witch, Water for Elephants, and A Song of Ice and Fire series). I've tried out different "in" workouts like P90X, Zumba, and Zero Gravity Boxing.
But more than anything, I realized where I'm at now is the best time to really discover myself. Having been stripped off the things that have come to define my being, it's like being given a new blank canvas.
This blog, for me, is that fresh canvas -- to fill with what truly inspires me, moves me, and speaks to me. And maybe, within this blog, others will join me in my journey, and re-discover themselves as well.
